It's been too long since I've updated this journal, but well, let's just say that I've been through some rough patches while adapting to my new job as a lecturer. I don't really want to complain much everytime I write something, and it seems like most of the things that I want to write on my first year as a lecturer are something negative.
Being a lecturer is a serious drain for my positive emotion, what's with the demands from both fellow lecturers and students. I can't really say that things are really getting up, but I can breathe for a while, I think. At least right now, I could breathe more easily, and not really terrified of regretting myself on procrastinating my current projects / tasks.
Though it's not all sunshine and rainbows, I definitely want to stay in this job. I don't know whether that would mean that I'm a masochist, but the job is totally worth it if I think on my students. As much as I want to strangle some of them, I really do want to make them better. ...Well at least, the ones that I think I could help make better--I just can't think on how to get through to some of my troublesome students who care less about their education.
That being said, I'm not really sure whether I would be very active on updating this journal now (not updating for two years did say something :'D). As I said, sometimes at the end of the day (even weekends), I was thoroughly exhausted either physically / mentally / emotionally, that I just want to sleep / play mundane games / not to think of what I should write about. And anyway, I don't know whether there are still you, my friends, who are active and read my posts. Nevertheless, I'm reluctant to shut down this account, since it's full of memories, so I will try to update from time to time (hopefully the update is not for another two years). So, see you when I see you then! Thank you for still reading, I hope I could catch up with how're you doing too <3